Like right now I just got into an argument with my dad. What happened was, I went to CVS with him to pick up medication for him and my grandmother the one who's sick at home with the stroke I talked about in the main post. So the other day I picked up her medicine for her. But supposably, my dad got a text message saying to pick up a medicine fpr her. I kept saying that I picked it up because it came after on the same day I picked up the other medication. So today we go to pick up medication and he was correct, there was another medication I didn't pick up. I said to him you were right and I admitted it right there, even people at the pharmacy hurt me admit it. Then when we get in the car, and he has to tell me what I could do different and try to coach me like a 5 year old kid. I started telling him that I would not like to hear how I can do it differently. Because I'm not him, and I think different than you. So I don't need to conform the way you're thinking. He starts telling me that I'm a ilogical, and this and that. I told him that I need to make my own mistake, and then get back up again. He keeps telling me that I need to be logical and that I need to ask because we're here. I told him not everybody thinks like you and just because you are right about the medicine now, doesn't mean I have to do what you want me to do just because you think it's logical. He says I know you wouldn't have thought of it and if I don't care. It got to the point he used foul language towards me in the car, and then hit me not very hard on my chest with his free hand while he was driving. I didn't lay a hand on him, even afterward. When we got home it continue going on in the car, on the driveway. I told him you have to be right even though I admitted it and then you have to tell me what you believe is correct, you can't just let it go.friends, and family as close as my dad, are trying to make me mold to them. Instead of letting me be my own person and figuring out for myself. Including my aunt who is trying to get me jobs and not helping what I want to do because I want to leave this state. But getting the job locally would just make me stay here. Which I'm trying to leave as soon as I find a job. I have dreams and goals I want to accomplish, but when no one's helping me with my problems I talk about in the main post. Then I get this people trying to mold me how they think I should be. It got to the point after while I'm getting sick and tired of it and when people do it I just tell them to stop it. But no one wants to stop.

I mean my dad loves me and trying to do what is the best thing for me but he needs to let me make a mistake fall down and get back up. If he keeps telling me what to do and keep me what to do I'm never going to learn and I'm going to be in the same spot I always am. I keep trying to stress that to him but he doesn't care. It's like he gets upset when I try to tell him to think about me when I have a different view than him. Even though it may not be wrong, mean, rude or anything like that.

I mean I'm so lost in life. I don't even know where to begin anymore. I feel like I'm stuck in this way, and I'm never going to get out of it because no one is helping me with the main problem I talked about on the main post. Also, now people are trying to make me conform to them. I feel like it's a never ending cycle, that I want out of so bad. I mean I don't fight with no one else even other people that step my boundaries. Plus not to mention he has a lot of other problems including at work related to his anger and the way he is. I mean he doesn't even want to take the first step in admitting his situation and what he's doing wrong. That would be the first step in helping yourself. It's very personal but I don't mind explaining to you if you want to know just message me and I will tell you.