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Originally Posted by Aniii
Ok, everyone says dissociation helps them survive but it doesn`t help me! It makes daily life
extremely difficult for me because.. it`s like my brain absolutely doesn`t work!.. When something
bad happens associated with rejection betrayal etc.from people close to me at the moment it`s like
all the trauma from my childhood comes here and now and I can`t differentiate past from present
anymore. I litteraly can`t think, and speak.. I don`t have any attention on anything.. any working
memory.. because I become the child I was then!!! It`s like I look but I don`t see a thing!.. I don`t
understand.. I don`t sens nothing! It`s like something broke in my mind and there is no.. continuity
and integrity anymore. There are only casual pictures that come to my mind, could be from the good
times as well, not connected and with no emotion no understanding no meaning.. Is this something
more that dissociation that comes after it as the traumatic events deepen?..
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going to guess most mean it helped them during the trauma to survive...though i have known some who don't mind the dissociation they experience as it numbs them so they don't have to feel things too much.
all the types of dissociation i've had have become maladaptive. while they served a purpose (i guess still do) to protect me, they now tend to just cause more issues for me and are not enjoyable most of the time. it's also really painful for me sometimes.