I hate Christmas - too many expectations & reminders of how alone I am. This year I have an invite to spend the day with friends so that won't be too bad. But I'm still struggling because my brother wants me to fly out to Calgary to spend Christmas with his family and I have hugely mixed feelings. On the one hand i know being lonely is a dangerous trigger for me wanting to drink, but on the other he really doesn't understand my addiction / mental health issues, and while he tries to be supportive, explaining just makes it feel worse.

--splitimage