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I'm glad you made that list ... maybe it will help point you in a better direction of what you can work on?
I like what you said about cutting being a form of communication - even if no one else really knows. For me it's kind of like that ... the only people that know about it are far away and i rarely see them ( ) ... but there's some sort of... reinforcement if you will when i see my cuts. It's almost validating in a way because I feel all of these things, and I don't really have anyone that i feel comfortable talking about it with, so SI expresses them for me.
But then again, we all know (too well) the repercussions of SI can be horrible .. so what can ya do...
Maybe bring in a similar list and talk to your T about how SI makes you feel in that respect? If you trust your T .. i would say go for it. He/She can help you in ways that no one else probably can, embrace that.