I don't know if it's depression, but I've been feeling stuck... mostly my entire life.
I can't loose my feelings well... I have so much anger.
At work today, I felt horrible - thoughts of hatred and wrath towards a past friend whom I feel damaged me so much.
I'm such a complex thread... overthinking, being stuck, almost having no friends now... I could never make friends well, and I've never been satisfied, and those I've been satisfied with - I felt they've been using me as a sponge of "evil" things (like being snide, angry talk, critical behaviors...) - I've been too tolerant...

Lately I made a few threads, but in a short time they went unanswered. I can assume it's due to complexity, but I literally don't know.

Someone...?
I felt like I can't take it anymore during work! I felt like I'm tearing apart, wanting to take a break from life...