I understand this soooo much, I also had a hook up once, but because of my own insecurities I tore myself down to the point I had to restart and fix myself again. I say live life, struggling to find intimacy is one of my biggest problems, but being yourself obviously means someone out there likes you enough to want to be with you. Meaning! There's a whole boat load of life waiting for you to discover. It definitely takes time to get over a breakup, especially one that was going good for you. I say to relax and really connect with yourself on what you want vs how you want it. Who knows there'll be someone who might be totally different than your ex, who shows you a different world altogether.[emoji4]