So, basically, I've been really depressed for the past week or so. Like bottom of the barrel, no way out, kind of depressed. I refuse to engage with our local mental health system because it's a joke, though. (They told me to do yoga last time, but that's another story...)

Anyway I've tried reaching out to my SO and they just point blank ignore me. For hours. For entire days. Then I commented how I felt alone and desperate and I get "well you need to give me ways to help". Uh... How about some friggin' compassion?

It's not the first time this has happened, they won't even engage with me. No calls. No offering to play games. No just talking to me. No, it's MY job when I'm depressed to fill them in on what I need, even though I can't think straight.

This isn't right, is it? I'm even more depressed and lonely because I feel like they don't have my back.