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Originally Posted by samj40
So, basically, I've been really depressed for the past week or so. Like bottom of the barrel, no way out, kind of depressed. I refuse to engage with our local mental health system because it's a joke, though. (They told me to do yoga last time, but that's another story...)
Anyway I've tried reaching out to my SO and they just point blank ignore me. For hours. For entire days. Then I commented how I felt alone and desperate and I get "well you need to give me ways to help". Uh... How about some friggin' compassion? 
It's not the first time this has happened, they won't even engage with me. No calls. No offering to play games. No just talking to me. No, it's MY job when I'm depressed to fill them in on what I need, even though I can't think straight.
This isn't right, is it? I'm even more depressed and lonely because I feel like they don't have my back.  |
No its not right. I too have no support within close reach except my therapist and best friend who happens to live 100s of miles away. In my last session we discussed how awful it is to be not alone but feel lonely. It's worse than actually being alone, as people are around but you have the added feeling of rejection on top of it.
Could it be time to change the people around you? I felt lonely and depressed for the past 2 years. My partner and father of my children was basically just existing in my life, adding to the stress. My parents and siblings basically don't give a crap unless it directly effects them.
Iv learned during therapy to depend on myself more and focus on my own happiness and how to get it. It has led me to begin thinking of life without my fiancee.
Is there nothing available around you therapy wise? It's nice to be able to speak to somebody out of the box. Im not one to usually advocate medication either, but I finally gave in and started antidepressants 6 months ago and they have changed my life. I never realized how depressed I was until I wasn't anymore. If that makes sense. It hasn't fixed my problems in any sense, but it sure makes it a whole lot easier to deal with.
Hugs!! We are here if you need to chat x