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Originally Posted by Quarter life
I guess realising that we all have a limited time to live our lives...which prompted me to take stock of my available options. 10 years of psychotherapy helped a lot. My Psychiatrist took me apart, then spent several years putting me back together...he built a new me. But yes...this change was voluntary. It was a natural progression after my Therapist helped me build a set of strategies and coping skills.
We need to appreciate that there are a million choices we can make, but choosing wisely is the key. Simply taking a moment to weigh our options usually sets us on the more viable path.
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I don't think I have the fortitude to spend 10 years attending therapy week after week. If it really takes that long to notice a significant improvement, then I would rather just put all that energy into doing something that actually matters to other people like starting a successful business and focusing solely on my passions. Yes, I will continue to have trouble with my relationships and I will probably be lonely but so what? Besides, all most people respect anyways is money and power; if I had both then I could easily compensate for how damaged I am.
Even if I wanted therapy right now, the simple fact of the matter is that I
cannot afford it. I literally make $320 a month off donating plasma which I rely on to buy food and pay my phone and internet bills and sometimes my power bill and until I get a stable income, there isn't a lot I can do.
I'm just going to sign up for summer classes at my local Community College and get a student loan to cover for everything and I'm also going to see if they will pay for a cheap trailer home for me because when this housing grant of mine expires I don't see myself being able to pay rent every month because even if I do find a stable job, I question my ability to hold one down for extended periods of time.