It wasn't nearly as bad as i expected it to be. She's very caring and understanding - we were talking about my being a multiple and i felt we'd go into the SI... then she went back to talking about regular dr stuff. But i thinks she's pretty intuitive and went back to talking about therapy, mood, and being a multiple. So i explained more and showed her. She never flinched, missed a beat, or changed her caring tone. She looked at them carefully, asked how they were done and how long i'd been doing it, asked if I'd told my T, and asked about medications. She's usually not one for medications, so i was surprised. but she may bring that up to my T (PMHNP).
She's been so helpful ever since I met her over the summer - I brought her a thank you card. She asked to open it while I was there (said 'they don't do this in my country' - Chile) and was very touched - her eyes misted over and she said now we're both gonna cry.
Clearly my cutting did not change her impression of me, and she said multiplicity is very common - more common than people think. She still cares about me and made sure i knew that.
I thin this is the only relationship i have really felt this cared for and i am soooo glad it is in a "professional" setting because that way it doesn't have to get messy with all the other gunk that can come up in closer relationships. I really needed this. Sometimes it makes me cry just because i don't understand all the emotions going on around being cared for.
kiya