Ok I didn't make it out to my appointments so I said ok I'll springclean. Not happening. I started to spiral so I did everything I could think of...chatted with my mom, daughter and brother. Went and got the mail. Cuddled my dog. Started reading the new James Patterson and it's still so bad I called my pdoc to see if I can see him before Thursday. This disease is cruel and I feel like a failure. I feel like if I was stronger or tried harder I could overcome this. I also feel like I'm letting people down on here and in my life when I do well then fail. Maybe I'm in between the depression and moving toward being stable.