No no no no no no no no no no no

I wish I had advice. When my mother visits (maybe once a year) I turn five and can't say anything. I'm not sure our relationship can ever transcend that.

I always try to have set times that I need to leave (to teach, to meet someone, have to be out of town for work) and make sure I lie about the time so that I have a few hours to switch myself back on and breathe again.