kind of an odd pondering -- from my side of the fence.

The sister that was the meanest and most abusive to me just loves the "dark" side. She can't get enough of horror movies and the like-- the more upsetting the better for her. And here I always thought that it's because she has always been so mean and the "bully".....
I on the other hand can NOT watch the things she does-- my anxiety escalates, I feel shakey and sick to my stomach.

So, just maybe-- liking the "dark" side is just a part of someone-- like how some people like to swim while others like to jog. I don't know-- but I do know I went through many traumas in childhood and as an adult too yet, I steer way clear of horror....... try to stay far away from those past upsetting feelings.

Well, this post was meant to help you feel better about yourself and to say that maybe, just maybe this part of you isn't a direct result of your past abuse. Perhaps it's a part of you that would have always been.........
I hope my post held up to it's intentions.

Cyran0

mandy