I wanted to post something positive for a change...
I came across the quote below a while ago and liked it. Author unknown.
I think it aptly describes living with something like bp every day.
As I have said before, I think you guys are all rock stars. No one else has any fuucking clue what it's like to deal with this shiit.

I know that depression can be pretty sneaky and Convincing when it tells me that I am pathetic and weak and worthless. But it's not true for me or for any of you. So I wanted u to know I think you are all extraordinary, strong, awesome peeps and the world is a better place with you all in it.

"You wake up every morning to fight
The same demons that left you so tired
The night before, and that, my friend
Is bravery."

Have a good week. keep kicking some as$.