Yes stale. Our marriage life is stale in every capacity.

And I've had issues with my kids since they were little. My oldest has been in therapy for 3 yrs for anger & defiant disorder. She's my worst.
My 2nd has 3 learning disabilities & very emotional.
My youngest has terrible anxiety in first grade! Why?
So I feel totally responsible for them & their issues & that it's my job, as mom, to put my wants & desires to the side to help them any way I can.
I did that for awhile & it's left me with more resentment. I'm tired & I feel old.
I give so much to all of them including my SO that I've lost myself in the process.
It makes me angry. It makes me sad. This isn't how I saw my future.