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Originally Posted by reb569
A while back I purchased the book, "The Complex PTSD Workbook", by Arielle Schwartz, PHD. I worked through the first two chapters previously, then took a break from it. I started Chapter 3 Sunday and was working on it some more last night after work.
Basically, it covers a topic and then gives you an exercise to complete and then you journal about it. Chapter 3 is about Healing Avoidance Symptoms.
One exercise is about coming up with a positive term about yourself and then repeating it several times. A suggested term was, "I love myself just as I am this moment", but it recommending coming up with your own statement. I thought that statement was a bit to strong for me so I came up with, "I love myself even though I can't handle life". I started repeating it, and after repeating it several times realized, I had inadvertently changed the term to "I hate myself even though I can't handle life".
I think I have a lot of work to do....that kind of put me into a funk because after that I couldn't get any positives out of what I was doing. So I went to sleep.
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Well you are just starting. Don't be so hard on yourself, it's something new and it may take some time to get that thought to be comfortable enough to say without questioning it. I also have that workbook. Got it right before I started the PE therapy so I never started it. Seeing this T is more than enough for me right now. But from what I did see in it ..it looks more fitting for CPTSD than the PTSD workbook did. That was a total waste for me.
We all have a lot of work to do and I'm afraid it's going to be work until the day we die. Maybe not as hard but hopefully we will get to a place where we can function with a occasional tune ups from the T.