I have not the courage for meet-up or generally meeting people from online. Apologies to ruffling the feathers of some but I just can't make online friendships (the prospect intimidates and repulses me; there is a fakery to it in my little shared opinion). I was so desperately lonely though for a few years there and SH as a coping mechanism. I had SI.

The best thing I did was attend a Mood Disorders Support Group. Finally I met people like myself and found myself able to talk socially amongst them during the allotted time before the meeting to do so. I have made a number of acquaintances and a few have even become friendships. That was near three years ago. I have since reached out and made other social connections. I am healthier too; so, I don't attend the group each week any more but it is there for me when and if I need to be around people.

It was so very difficult to get myself to that first meeting. I put up a lot of excuses and barriers but I am so glad I did.