Well it was back to work today after a week off due to severe anxiety attacks coupled with the worst depression I've had in a long time. It was nice to just stop for a few days and regroup.

So I went in and of course everyone wanted to now how I was, what was wrong. I lied and said I had a really bad cold. I did have a cold but it wasn't that bad. I just can't bring myself to tell casual co workers that I suffer from depression and anxiety. I don't want to be labeled. That's what people that don't understand do. I hate that. And I am ashamed as I feel I should be stonger than I am. I should not let this get the best of me.

Right away I was hit with "What are you bringing to the office xmas party? I'm bringing this and she's bringing that...". UUUUGGGGHHHHH! Why must everyone else be so happy????? I wanted to tell them I'll bring the Xanax and you can bring the cookies and we'll have ourselves a heck of a party by golly Just picturing their reaction brought a smile and I felt that the day would be o.k. And it was.