Thank you QM, and thank you for remembering that! It certainly wasn't an easy process but I did just know, and I was very lucky that I had Old T backing me, believing me, telling me it WAS out there. I just had to have the strength to keep going until I found it, which I very nearly didn't. I also had to be very, very honest with all those people upfront, and just walk away if they didn't seem 100% onboard with everything, which most didn't.

I am fortunate also that I am in a position in life now where I can afford to be choosy, both in time and money ways. I have not been in this position before, so therapy before this, for me, would have been a lot more limited I think, and possibly would not have worked for me.

Lots of factors to consider there but I still do think that if people believe that they know what they need, and have the resources, they should look for it. That is a big reason why I post, because had I not had old T telling me this, I would not have kept looking. I would have given up, and I think that would have been a real shame.

Thank you, and I do really hope that one day you too can find something in this crazy world that really helps you, deep down.