I have been off my medication and been doing meh for the last 3 years. I took the hiatus to have a baby and to nurse her.

Now I am struggling again. I am irritated by my clothes. My body aches. I am having trouble getting to sleep and not wanting to wake up in the morning. I could fly off the handle any given time. I think I am dissociating.

I am having trouble at work dealing with people. Being a woman in engineering has certain challenges. If I am assertive (which I have to be) my boss gets complaints about me. But if I am not assertive I will not be taken seriously. I is a fine line that some days I cannot seem to navigate. Days like today I just do not have the fight in me to let this stuff roll off my back.

It is awful. I answered a question on the phone and the person doubted my answer. Instead of being assertive, I deferred the call to my lead. Dummy.

I do not know what I am looking for or asking. I guess venting....