Thread: Ace or Afraid?
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Old Apr 04, 2017, 10:48 AM
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When I was little, I was given inappropriate attention by several males in my life who were much older than me and in places in my life in which I should be able to trust them (i.e. family, camp counselors, friends' parents, etc.). I don't remember much of it very clearly, but I do remember the people and the basics of what happened. Just last year, I was given what I considered inappropriate attention by a family friend whom I had grown up with. We go to the same college, and not only did he get extremely handy in a way that made me uncomfortable, he kissed me. This was my first (and only) kiss. I wasn't given a chance to say no, really, and he did this kind of thing as often as possible. There was no more kissing directly, but he kissed my neck a few times, and would "hug" me while rubbing against me. I didn't enjoy any of what he did to me, and in fact felt very violated afterwards. It got me thinking about my sexuality. After some research, I thought that I could be asexual, or some subset of ace or on the ace spectrum somehow. That seems to be what I relate most to. My mother and therapist, both of whom I tell most everything to, think that this could just be me being afraid or distrusting because of the past experiences I mentioned above. Thoughts?
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