(((((((((((((nowheretorun)))))))))))))
Try not to be so hard on yourself. You can't control the actions of others, all you can control is yourself, and if you started off with the right intentions, then you're not the one that should be feeling so bad. Sometimes things just turn out differently then we anticipated, and we just have to roll with the punches.
We all know you have a kind heart
Hugs
Jacq