I've heard that bi-polar can be so severe that one can make a major life decision, put a plan into action, and then change their mind weeks, even months later and try to stop the plan they put in motion. Is this true and does it also happen with people who take regular meds, engage in weekly therapy, and claim that they are doing great, feeling better than ever, and know exactly what they want?

My husband has told me twice now in the past 5 months that he wants a divorce. He put the plan into action and then 2 months later came to me asking for forgiveness and another chance. I took him back and a now 4 weeks later he has decided he wants the divorce again. He claims he has contacted his lawyer and that he is apparently finished with me.

I am so distraught I cannot even function. I'm not even the one who is bi-polar and I feel more mentally ill than ever. I've recently tried to take my life, I cannot stop emailing and texting my husband, and all I do is cry. I cry all day long and it is literally making me sick.

I know that some of you already know my story and have offered your opinions and great advice, but I cannot help but dwell on this.

Believe it or not, I actually just signed up for one of those stupid dating websites hoping that getting out on a few dates will help me get over my hurt. I've already gotten a few replys from men who seem to be very nice and attractive, but I honestly don't even want to go out with anyone. I am forcing myself to do it though because I am literally going crazy just sitting here crying everyday over my sick hubby.

I don't want to lose him. I love him so much it pains me to no end. I am lost and I don't know what to do. If the day comes when I have to sit with my husband and his lawyer I don't know that I will be able to handle it. I am a mess.