Dear T,

I might email this back to you but I am unsure.

I do want to trust you, so badly, and I do, to quite a big extent I really do. It is a real struggle to explain it, so I am not going to try, but I need you to know that I do believe you. I would never, ever let myself be as vulnerable as I am with you if I didn't believe you and if I didn't trust you. We are just, together, working on changing the instinctive reactions, the deep rooted beliefs in me caused by years of not being able to trust anyone, of not believing that anyone was there for me, just because.

Something in your email did not sit right with me and it is the statement "I am only walking besides you, helping you to read some of the signs."

I can assure you that, whether you know it or not, you are doing a lot more than that. The word "only" has no place in that sentence. Me allowing somebody, and somebody wanting "to walk by my side" is such an enormous thing that "only" is not a word that fits there.

That's all for now,

Me