Twilightzone, that is pretty much the world view. I don't buy the facade. Seems like the sort of thing that could be learned through years of torment, yeah? I think that's the way I'm leaning, being rejected by the normal caused me to reject the norm. Violence I know personally is very real...Oh, and about the sympathy for the devil thing, I tend to talk in culture references. It's a bad habit. But I didn't mean it literally. I'm an agnostic, I'm not even sure the devil exists (leaning towards no on that one). Religion would be another of those norms I rejected.
By the way, great handle. That series was groundbreaking. Paved the way for many of the great horror and sci-fi writers that came later.
Perna, I know not all football players are bad people, that some very great minds watch reality tv (I don't know why but I know they do), that Christians are as varied as any other religious group, and that my broad generalities are not really healthy. But I was trying to describe the knee jerk reaction that tends to happen in my head. It's judgmental and immature and when I'm in a better mood, I tend not to make them. But the anger is still there.
As far as environment goes, yeah, I ran with a rough crowd and some artists with pretty dark sensibilities. I'm sure they rubbed off on me and did create a comfort level for odd environments that I just never developed for the suburbs.
Mandy, I'm sorry about what happened to you. I'm not sure I followed all of your post but I liked the sentiment.
So there, glad we cleared all that up.
Now how do I go about deleting this embarrassing thread?
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Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD (childhood physical/sexual abuse), history of drug abuse.
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