art T,

I feel hopeless and devastated. I might just jump ship tomorrow and leave this group I didn't want to join in the first place. Not sure though. A tiny part of me still holds a little bit of hope that things might turn around eventually. That I might be able to enjoy the group and to profit from this setting.
It doesn't feel like it's right around the corner though. And in fact, at the moment it feels like torture. And I'm still angry like h*ll that you are the one who inflicted this torture on me.

I know, I'm a free person. I could just get up and go. But the truth is: I can't. There's unfinished business between the two of us and I know myself well enough to realize that this would haunt me for a long time to come.

So if I get up and leave, it needs to be from a place of resolution and closure and not out of anger. Will you please help me get there somehow? You'd better damn well...

c_r