Eating makes me happy as well. I think it's about finding a balance (which I still haven't found). I tried for a long time to be healthier and lose weight, but it didn't work, and worrying about my weight just made me hate myself more. I decided I would rather be happy than healthy. But now I'm thinking that long-term happiness is easier when you're healthy. I personally want to find a way to be both happy and healthy. It might help you if you want to be healthier or lose weight (those aren't necessarily the same), as I think you do given your original post, to try to implement some things that will make you healthier without taking away any of the food that you enjoy. Don't even try smaller portion sizes or anything, just add something like walking 30 minutes a day or drinking more water. Baby steps to a healthier life.