T,

Things have been such a struggle recently. I think it's because I'm really coming to terms with the ways in which I cause the chaos in my life, and I don't know how to minimize the affects of the trauma I've suffered.

You tell me I'm so strong, and yet I feel weak. I don't want to admit this weakness, but I think I need to go to once a week instead of once every two. I'm falling to pieces.