I got to a point where I am no longer dissociating in anxious situations; but this means everything I feel is so overwhelming I don't know how to deal with them.
Not just anxity... but sexual tension is unbearable as well.
I have been getting to know someone online and even though we have not met in real life it is hard for me to engage in any sort of sexual play. And it is pretty bad, because I do want to.
this thing is still it's in early state... trying to be honest and upfront, but I feel like it might have just too much for him. He is understanding and shows patience, but still. I feel like I went a bit overboard.... because this ambiguity of wanting and not wanting is too much for me.
And now I'm kind of in an anxious and obsessed state, not knowing how to ease this...