just look deep and find you ... that is where you are ... we all want to be "normal" ... but just what is your normal ... we all want to be stable ... what does that mean ... we are where we are ... period ... start there ... no one has the right to tell you where your going but yourself ...

I would write ... journel ... document where you are now ... how you feel ... your dreams ... your fears ... just whatever you feel or think of ... use that as a reference ... take a good look ...

when you are clear about who .. what .. and where in life you are .... then ... maybe a plan ... maybe not ... your decision ... if it is not your decision you will have no chance of following thru ... it must start with and from yourself ... good luck my friend ... your journey is yours alone ... a unique path ... tread it proudly ... with you always ... remember we are all here for you .. Tigger.