My trust in therapy has been diminished, my trust in people is diminishing, I'm in self-denial. I want to blame my last therapist, I want to blame my ex best friend who has scarred me over the years and I could never feel it.

I have so much to vent, I hate being dependent on mental treatment all my life because I sense the hidden causes of mental illnesses - you know, the small things like making fun of someone or abusing someone in hidden ways such as passive-aggressive sarcasm.

I need serious help and I don't know what to do.