Maybe this is about the difference between a mild depression and a severe depression. I think that people having a mild depression are the majority of the ones that have this type of "enlightening experience": "I was depressed in darkness and then I saw the light". But we, the ones with severe depression, we know depression (evil depression) will be with us, always. To me depression is like an undeveloped twin I have attached to my back, sometimes I forget about this backpack and move faster. Sometimes the backpack feels super heavy and I can barely move. Sometimes I am the backpack. I am all backpack.
I don't know even if this makes any sense, but I wanted to share it with you
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ClaraHope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out. Vaclav Havel
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