couldn't stop my fingers from tapping out a question Cyrano...

as a small child, did you believe in goodnesses?... perhaps something happened and the good forces failed to save you, so now, the alternative is darkness?

have you considered giving goodness another chance?

ive been deeply down also, and normally i dont feel "qualified" to post in this forum... my depression is for other reasons so i cannot say i understand exactly what you feel...

i apologise if this question disturbs you... i am not referring here to Roman Quarters... but God Spirit as you yourself understand... create of your own intelligence in alignment with guidances from many great minds...

i dont normally browse this forum... you can reach me by pm...

Peace