I must say I feel worse now then I did before making the post, mostly becuase I'm unsure to whether you guys are right , wrong, or clearly misunderstand, or none of the above. Its kind of like love, the type you have when your young, like a crush...you love this person secretly, never having them love you back.....I beg mercy for my T to care for me theraputicly...I'm unsure what to say anymore, I guess I shall weep in bed and pray for a better tomorrow......as life is always today for me.......

Dustin