I relapsed today after 3 months or so of bring clean out if the hospital. I've been an IV herion user for almost 4 years. Was using a little more than a gram a day before I quit.

I feel so guilty right now. I've no self harmed and I can't keep my mind from racing. I suppose to tell my girlfriend if have done eithe but she is currently in mental health facility, im terrified if I tell her it will trigger her or.she will brake up with me.

I used because when I was walking down the road when I caught a wiff of Irish springs(( a body wash)) and sweat and it sent me for a flash back when I molested. And I started to freak out......And I needed these feelings go away so.i went and got my fix.

But now The guilt is killing me, I feel like garbage, I feel like I don't deserve another chance at this life now. I've failed, I've failed myself, my.girl friend. My.therpist, I've failed everyone......
What do I do? Do I tell.my.girlfriend? How.am I going g to.handle life if I can't want down the street with out the most intense urge to use? Im so lost right now.peole.....Please.help