So I am a fuuckiing rock star afterall- I FINALLY did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen! Yah. Seriously, I have had the same dishes in the sink for 2 weeks and a messy kitchen and a fridge full of old spoiled food. Not anymore! Okay so perhaps it is not normal that it is 3 am and I am awake, but I've got to grab on whatever motivaton comes my way bc it is few and far between lately.

I think I'm gonna do my laundry at a laundromat tomm so I can do 6 loads at once... Then my house will be picked up and declittered enough to be able to actually be able to clean it!

I will say that although my mood is still kind of shiit I do feel a little better, maybe. At least energy wise. And less si. Why I am awake so late I'm not exactly sure? I tend to get caught up with doing something and lose track of the time- I think I was amazed i was actually able to accomplish something that I was afraid to stop lest the ability to function decodes to disappear again.

Anyway, gonna go to bed now, basking in the glory of my kick asss achievement (yeah im being sarcastic here- doing dishes shouldn't make me feel like I just got the bronze medal). But considering how long since I have been able to do anything besides go to work, I am gonna fuucking celebrate clean dishes and a clean kitchen and fridge.

Have a good night. Peace out.