I have not been feeling well at all lately. An old friend of mine has been calling alot and I had this unrealistic thought that maybe we could mend some old wounds and start fresh.

This friend is moving right now and I know how busy she has been. I offered her to come for supper on Saturday, her son as well. He is 11yrs old and to say it politely; A TYRANT!!

He has obvious reasons for his behavior as his mom has tons of issues. She just got him back not too long ago as he was removed from her home from drug and alcohol issues. Her daughter is 13 and has not lived with her for about 10yrs as she was taking as well. But they still see each other, this weekend being one on those times. She is such a sweet heart, I really enjoy her.

So anyway, we used to be really close friends until I saw myself getting out of control with alcohol. As I was trying to fight for my kids I had to remove myself from temptation. This friend of mine tried anything to make life miserable for me and it took a long time to see this. I was hoping that she had changed----I WAS SO WRONG.

She ended up getting totally drunk at my house, talking with such vulgar language, I thought I was going to kick her out. She stayed over night as she invited herself and son to sleep over (she had to return her daughter for the evening until this morning). So I figured I was responsible in not allowing her to drive home and did not want anything to happen to them.

I was so stressed that I got this stomach pain I fell apart in tears. She asked what was wrong but too soon made a remark about me not eating much. That was not the problem!!! She did not lift a finger all night. I ran after the kids--literally. Her son was disrespectful, hitting, swearing, arguing etc....

It was 3:30am and I could not take it anymore. I phoned my bf with pathetic sobbing. Between the stress, being tired beyond words, my stomach pain, and complete anger.... I was going to blow!!! Finally at 4am I went upstairs and left her down on the couch. She was going on for 2 hrs about this guy she is having an affair with. I was sooooo angry. She wanted a consent from me that this is okay what she is doing to the poor man she is going to marry!!! HOW SICK IS THAT!!! (HEHE, opps I hit enter) sry.

Anyway, I really got sick of hearing how she is willing to take the risk to cheat as she is attracted to this other guy. This is the same person she used to be and I am not interested in this bull what-so-ever.

Her son was still acting up at 4am, and I was still trying to deal with him. She passed out!!! We barely ever drink for reasons that I used to have a problem with it. I would die if I drank like that at this point in my health. She brought her "stuff over". I should have said no but honestly did not realize she would do this. BUT IT DID NOT END HERE!!!

She was supposed to pick up her daughter at 9:30 this morning. I got up at 9 and got into the bath. She woke up and did not leave till 10:30. She only got to see her daughter till 2pm today. So she only saw her for a short time. She asked me if I would mind letting her leave her son here until she got her daughter. Well she left at 10:30 and did not call me until 12:30. She asked me to meet her and bring her son to the mall. I was so ticked as my kids were trying to get ready as their dad was taking them for a few hours today. I was rushing around getting them ready and dealing with her kid to boot. It did not go well to say the least. As soon as my childrens dad came my bf and I took her son to his mother. We left, got into the car, and it was total break down. I cried for about 10mins.

We ended up going shopping which was really great. It took me away from what had just happened. But now she just called me----its 12:30am. The phone woke one of my kids. I am so maddddddd.

Justy