You have to let it go because the guilt and shame will probably make you continue to use ...

I know what this feels like...I go a couple of months without my addiction and then screw up. And then I realize using didnt take away any of my problems or feelings and just intesified everything.

I always have to remember (in order to get out of it)..that I am working hard on being clean and I don't want a slip to take everything i have worked hard for away....

I wouldn't tell anyone and after a few days..the guilt will pass...and you can just get back on track with your therapist and your relationships.

In the meantime be kind to yourself...eat well...sleep the best you can...and remember to do the next "right" thing. My sponsor used to say...Do the right thing and right things happen.

I'm sorry this happened to you..and it sucks...but try and move past it today..you are not a BAD person...you have an addiction...addictions are strong...keep fighting.