I relapsed 2 weeks ago too. I have previously had 8 years sober but started drinking again on and off for the last 3 years..been in the hospital close to death too many times in this 3 years....was very close to going to the hospital again 12 days ago.

I went to AA for 6 out of my 8 years..grew tired of the routine. I have been unwilling to go (hard headed) for the past 3 years..but this Sunday I did go..and I did feel better after I left.

I mainly went out of boredom...You know because you have been..they say..you hear what you need to hear and I did. I'm not a big fan of going..but I am going to go again because I know it is the only hope I have for having a stronger reason not to drink...maybe make some new friends...have some different activities...

I can tell that you are not really open to going..and I really have no other advice for you because I have no other advice for myself..so I am reluctantly going.