All of this makes me so sad. I am dealing with so much and unfortunately, I still feel somewhat hopeless and as if going into a peaceful sleep and never waking up would be the easy way out.

Don't get me wrong, I am NOT going to ever do that again. I am thankful that I am here today and I know for sure that God or some angel kept me from staying asleep forever. There honestly is no other reason I woke the next morning. I took over 100 pills and it should have done me in.

Holy crap, I am one lucky girl!!