I went last night to another meeting.
One of my old sponsors who knows me better than anyone was there.
Needless to say when I saw her I knew I was screwed.
Every time I would think just leave I wouldn't be able to feel my body...I think it was mostly a mental thing. Needless to say it kept me at the meeting.
She had me drive her home but even before that got me to commit to taking to an appointment tomorrow. Later on the way home she revealed she had a ride but as long as I was truly show up she would cancel the other ride. All I could say was I already said yes. So she is counting on me.
Anyway last night I dumped the last bit I had(and it wasn't even as much as I thought) knowing if it sat there two nights I would drink one of the two nights. Anyway, she's a sneaky one but she also knew if she got me to say yes I wouldn't back out later even after the confession of already having a ride. I love her but I sometimes I hate that she knows me SOOOOOOO well.