I'm in the boat with you. A sinking titanic with many passenger aboard, some drowning silently and with quiet resolve, some picking and screaming and pushing people aside so their far azz can steal a boat from 10 kids. Too bad it's not an unsinkable taught were on, with. Unless you are swim in and stars to watch dance. It's not a pretty boat we are in, and everyone will sink. It doesn't matter if you are good or evil. Perhaps thinking you are evil is the problem, or one of them. Can you accept that thinking you are evil could be delusional thinking?