I feel for you Bren, I too was molested as a child, by my cousin who lived with us,. I did not remember until a few years ago. I told my mother and she did not believe me. Sometimes I wish that I hadn't remembered those horrible things, but then I wouldn't be able to heal. To truly grow, you must face your past and come to peace with it, otherwise you will never truly move on and heal yourself. Just remember it takes time... and time heals all wounds (with the right therapist) Good luck in your quest for healing.