You are all so kind
I dont deserve you, any of you
I really am struggling with my life
I am sorry I am always moaning
I cant do anything right for anyone
I am terified right now
I even cancelled my t today I cant face it
My life is falling apart, no stopping it
fighting every day, can only tell here, cant tell family how I'm feeling, daughter is so aggressive at moment, son will end up despising me
Please dont tell me to have faith, see the light, get over it, only I can help myself
I know all of the above I know I know I know
weak, cant cope, want to hide, want to run, need to be alone, no chance of that, losing grip, hanging on by 1 finger, grease on branch, impossible........sorry sorry sorry please dont be fed up with me ranting, only outlet apart from t, cant face her today

j

voices conflicting in my head...always looking too deep, seeing things/situations/paranoid/is this normal/happy/sad/confused/love/hate/care/dont care/could walk away to save my family from all this crap/guilt every day - my daughters ex b/f's dad was depressed, she saw him as a waste of space......sometimes I catch her looking at me the same.....imagination? no.