Woohoo I go to therapy and what happens? A brand new couch! Yay!

Anyways... had a really really good session today. (I know I sound like a broken record lately with the "really really good session" but I can't help it! they have been!) T had had incense burning when I got there and it smelled really good. And a couple candles lit too. She turned off the light because she thought I needed help relaxing... she never realizes how much I relax just seeing her open the door... I do like the natural light that comes in the windows much better than the lamp, I must admit. I would not have asked to turn it off, but I'm glad she did. We talked about several things one of which was a dream I had last week about my mother. She got her drum out for me and I drummed for myself and did a quick dream re-entry there at the end and got a pretty deep piece of information from that. It was a little intimidating drumming in front of her, but I need to get used to drumming in front of people so might as well practice with her! It didn't take me long to get out of my head and into the journey once I started drumming.

Also I meant to tell her that I've come to realize just how much I value this relationship - even as much as I call it convoluted and confusing and crazy-making, I value it so much. I've found such healing within and because of it. I'm in one of those moods at the moment where I never want to stop going. I know it won't last - a week from now I'm sure I'll be talking about quitting again - but right now, it's the best damn thing since sliced bread.

Am I a walking contradiction or what?!