turmoil sweeps up visions
like a twister, thrashing
everything in its path
even rational decisions.....
loud, too loud, mangles my head
echoes of laughter, evil
his face, her face together
this tornado of dread.....
sweeps the memories right to the front
light gone, cold sets in
grasping at thin air
take the brunt......
tornado..take me, dump me
leave me alone someplace
where I cant damage my babies
where they can't see.....

who am I what have I become, cant find Kerry or Jinny, just a mass of trouble, something evil, something pityful, something selfish and bad, a freak, a lost cause