My Support Forums - View Single Post - Dear T: I Need To Tell You Something.... Part XXIII

Demunie · Apr 06, 2017, 07:36 AM

T,

I've been thinking for the past few hours about what is wrong with me... About how I feel and what I want to tell you.

(Trigger warning... Huge one)

Possible trigger:

I think the point is that I'm feeling defeated. I'm not suicidal or anything. I'm just numb. If I have to live on this world, then I want it to be the way I choose. I don't want to suffer. Not SHing means suffering. Sh means... Confusion and pain, but also the possibility of doing OK enough. If I end up having my whole body covered with scars, then be it. I don't care (and really, it doesn't make much difference to how it is now). If I kill myself by accident, get a serious infection or do some other irreparable damage... Then be it.

So... Obvioulsy, I don't want to get better. I shouldn't continue to waste your time.

Yours sincerely,
Me