I don't know how long you and your doc might have been trying different medications, but I do know that it's really hard to find the right combination. Especially since it can take weeks or months to know if the meds work, weeks or months to discover side effects, weeks or months to have those side effects go away--if they do at all. And then there's the issue with the fact they give you meds for the side effects, right? That's what they do for me anyhow. It totally stinks. I'm sorry you're going through this.

I was just looking down further in the thread and saw that you feel like you should be stronger. Strong enough to not need meds. I know that feeling, remember feeling like it was a maturity issue or a character thing. I wish it were that simple. I hate the comparison docs and support groups have given me when I told hem I was feeling like that. They say: "You wouldn't say that if you had diabetes. This is just like that. If it were diabetes, you'd take your insulin" or something like that.

While this might be true if I had diabetes, that doesn't change the fact that accepting that you have any disease is a huge process--and one we have to go through over and over sometimes. I don't know if that's what's you're going through right now, but just some thoughts.

Hope today is better.