Well that's a positive - it's a start, can't heal if you're dead. And yea, the rollercoaster emotion are of course the lows can be an extremely triggering event. I found what worked was to just write, workout, walk around the neighborhood, blast party type music, whatever, was a great help to stop thinking about self harm - just do something that numbed me out - probably not the therapist approved, but effective to stop letting those thoughts enter and overcome you.