Hello, this is the first time I use a social website/forum, but I thought maybe I should complain, and tell my story to random strangers who I will never meet in the real world, since I have no one in my life who I can talk to. I am from a country that you probably don't know about, but that's not the point. I have been a very lonely person since ever. I lived with both of my parents, which they were overprotective, so I've never went to a physical school (I was homeschooled) I didn't really get the chance to interact with other people. The only people I knew where my relatives, neighbours, and my parents' friends. My brother was my only friend, but now he's dead. And because I rarely got out, I've became completely dependent as an adult. I had this feeling of entitlement. And I also couldn't go anywhere without my mother. I am 23 now, and I've never had a job. I've realised how lonely I am the other day when I finally got out of house (I haven't got out of my house since 2013, I am not exaggerating) but anyway, when I got out I've seen these people, all happy and friendly... I felt absolutely angry at them. Which made me remember that my parents actually paid these workers when I was a child, they paid them to have their child become my "friend." Seeing people having fun with their friends made me feel anger, envy, and loneliness... I want a friend, how can I get a friend? I always felt empty, numb, and such. I didn't know why I felt this way, I also thought that I never needed friends... But when I saw these people laughing with their friends, it made me realise that my parents actually ruined my life. They ruined me.